July 15, 2019
Weight: 282.3
I have definitely let myself go. I have put myself on the back burner, again. Its what I do. Its what I am good at. Taking care of the people I care about is far more important than caring for myself. Always has been. More then likely, always will be.
Saturday, we celebrated Gwen's 10th birthday. Good friends, family, good food, good FANS (cause dang it was hot) and a good swimming hole (the creek) for the kiddos turned out to be the perfect combination. Birthdays at my parents place are always perfect. The kids get to play in the creek all day and the grown ups get to spend some much needed down time relaxing and catching up with each other.
I got to spend some much needed time with my BFF. And she pretty point blank told me I need to get my shit together. And she is right. I do. And I know what I need to do and how I need to do it. The kicker? I just don't care. I want to lose the weight and feel better. But I just don't care enough to do anything about it. The healthy foods don't appeal to me at all. And really, the unhealthy stuff doesn't really do it for me either. I eat it because it tastes good...and then I feel like crap afterwards. Maybe I am just supposed to be fat. I can live with that. Can't I?
So we talked about other options for me. And the one that I am trying currently is more to reset my system. To get me to just ease into things instead of going all in to fast. I had my first protein shake this morning. It was yummy and it def kept me from stopping at McDonalds for a Mocha Frappe. For lunch today I have a baked potato and will have yogurt for a snack before heading to get Gwen and head home today. Tonight's dinner is homemade whole30 chicken nuggets and broccoli. Yum.
We talked about me going back to writing things out again. I did seem to do better when I wrote things down and put it all on paper. So we will try this again. I think I may make this into more of a food blog for a little while. Mainly to keep me on track. To let me see what I am actually eating. I just need to promise myself that I will be truthful and write down everything I eat and drink.
Send me your favorite recipes! I'm looking for new yummy ideas.
So here is to me "getting my shit together". Day 1. The beginning. Again.
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